Twenty-one & Malaysian
hi april.
Tuesday, 1 April 2014 @ 05:10
          Hi. I am so mad right now because my brother pissed me off. I can't control my anger idk why. When im mad, it was like someone else is controlling me. I know its setan but my iman is not strong enough when that happened. So now, i opened ayat kursi on youtube and keep repeating hearing it to calm me down. InsyaAllah. I'm trying my best to change. Change to someone better. A good muslim. I'm trying now. Everytime something bad happen, i'll try not to say "OMG" but i'll say "Allahuakbar". Lol i should not tell you this..

          And yeah, i did talked about my classmate right? The one who threw my assignment on the floor.. He tried to talk to me lot of time but i ignored him. And few days ago, his friend, Botak, messing with my tablemate, Ainur. I can't just look at them fighting. I'm a good friend so i help her. We made this group chat on wechat and invited Botak. I tried to slow talk with him and guess what? He said "Kau fikir kau baik ah, sampai buat group nak bash bash aku?" Something like that i don't really remember. I was like "wtf bitch, i'm advising you not bashing you" Cb he dun get it. He seems dumb. So takyah layan ah, budak tak reti fikir lagi ni. And he said "yang baik aku simpan, jahat aku tunjuk" HAHAHAHAHAHAHA i laughed so hard when he sent this. Who the fuck does this? I think only him in this world does that. Because wth thats the dumbest thing i've ever heard.

          Yesterday, the guy i hate in my class, trying to cut my conversation with Ainur. He said something really slow and i could not hear it. I know its a bad thing but im not sure what the word is. Then i said "Uish siapa cakap tu eh?" then ainur started to laugh. Hahahaha idk whats really funny about it. Then he shut his mouth. Told ya, don't dare me. I never get mad at school so please don't make me. I've realised my character at home and at school is so different. I think if im at school, i acted like i am like a shy person, good person, smart person i guess bcs they think im smart lol. And i never talk bad things to people. Hahahahahaha ok they must be shock if i show the real me.

          I don't care but i don't want that happen. I don't want they know the real me. Because seriously, i hate the real me. I'm good at acting. So, yeah. Hahahahaha.