this is probably the end of us
Friday, 11 November 2016 @ 20:46
Hello there.
So today's post is kinda sad, heart-breaking. Ya'll know why, right? What else should i be sad about? All is about that fuckboy who never stop makes my life miserable. I don't know what is actually he wants from me. I just hate being his toy. I'm tired, YES. There's a time he's in love with me & there's a time he hates me for no reason and i'm freaking tired to switch my feelings cause we're keep switching situation :( I guess, i should've let him go. Best people gives the best memories. So, i guess its for the best. Yes, this makes me sad. What else should i do? I want to be happy too, takkan nak tengok org lain je happy. And yes, my problem is, when people got a crush on me, and they took a step to know me better, i pushed them away. Idk why. Idk if its because i am not ready to be in love with anyone else or i want people who got a crush on me had the same character like my ex. Like before he turns to fuckboy. And i'll just focus on my future. That stewardess thingy.
i will leave my heart at door
i won't say a word
they've all been said before y'know
so why don't we just play pretend
like we're not scared of what is coming next
or scared of having nothing left
I guess i was wrong about you. I thought we could be together again. I thought i could change you. I thought deep down in your heart there's the old you. I thought you would fight for us too. Annnnd again, i was wrong. I'll be ok without you, but not today, but one day. The day when i finally ready to let you go. Yes, i still love you. My friends keep telling me that i'm a fool for still loving the ex who has cheated on me before. Yes, i guess i am that fool. All i want is to feel his love. Because my love & feelings toward him are real. So, goodbye love 
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